Saturday Night - Suede

Today she's been working
she's been talking
she's been smoking
But it'll be alright

Cos tonight we'll go dancing
we'll go laughing
we'll get car sick

And it'll be okay like everyone says
it'll be alright and ever so nice
We're going out tonight out and about tonight.

Oh whatever makes her happy
on a Saturday night
Oh whatever makes her happy
whatever makes it alright.

Today she's been sat there
sat there in a black chair, office furniture,
But it'll be alright,

Cos tonight we'll go drinking
we'll do silly things,
And never let the winter in,

And it'll be okay like everyone says,
it'll be alright and ever so nice,
We're going out tonight, out and about tonight.

Oh, whatever makes her happy on a Saturday night,
Oh, whatever makes her happy, whatever makes it alright.

We'll go to peepshows and freak shows,
We'll go to discos, casinos,
We'll go where people go and let go
Oh whatever makes her happy

enough hippies and psychedelic for this year..

argh.. essay again.. the essay's getting confusing to me because I confuse myself with the topic i brought up.

i prefer writing blog to writing essay (ha-ha).

my topic for now is hippies. focusing on the psychedelic.
and i dunno why i somehow always have to deal with psychedelic since the beginning of this year.
50% of last semester, Beatles (which is psyche)
did the LOVE-condom, Lennon psyche typo portrait, and biography book cover.
this semester, design theory lesson, hippies (psyche to the max)
last time did a hippie video (with my role as a stoned hippie) and now, ESSAY!! argh
but i like essay. essay is challenging. i like to write. back to premise 1 when i said i prefer writing blog to writing essay. however i write blog very very rarely.

so, hippies. as in my personal view, i like hippies a lot, they live free and don't hurt anyone. flower power, yeah.
when i watch the movie Chicago 10 (about the anti-war movement and how they wanna do revolution but in the end the gov stopped them), i feel very touched..and sad.. almost can feel the empathy.
and i agree to their belief! all the governments and institutions have their own agenda for the citizen's life!
donch let them control u! be free! (how?)
imagine if the hippies at that time succeeded the revolution and bring the gov down, would it be such an interesting world we live in today. drugs are legal, lol.

and the effect of hallucinogen drugs, wow.. i never knew it until one of my friend tell me what's it like.. and i did research on it. what she told me is under the plus 1 (+1)

http://www.thegooddrugsguide.com/mushrooms/psychedelic.htm

cool..
creepy..
this thing shouldn't be illegal.
sell it like cigarettes!

argh.. what i dun like it here is.. THE FONTS ARE DAMN LIMITED!!
or maybe it's just bcause i haven't found the way to add new fonts..
anyway i use Georgia.
my best option among Arial, Courier, Lucida Grande, Times, Trebuchet, Verdana, and...
...WEBDINGS!
never never ever use Arial after u watch the movie Helvetica.

wow

yippie.. i refound my blog.
(swt)

funny how this feel, when i read my 'self description' under the title 'Decode': "recently19.easily depressed. thinker.kinda blur sumtimes.person of contradiction.end."
well, i realised that i haven't really changed from that moment i typed that (almost 2 yrs ago).
except that i'm 20. gonna be 21 by next new year. *sob*
still a kanciong-spider and easily depressed. still think a lot. still blur. still contradicting myself (and talking to myself inside my head).
well this blog title reminds me of level1's design theory "Encoding and Decoding".
i myself don't remember why i named this blog 'Decode', i haven't even learn that matter when i named it.

a few things do change.
-i'm a level2 student now, getting my diploma next yr and hoping to get a freelance job before graduating *crossing my fingers*
-still living in the same old St Patrick's House Lasalle Residences, except without my roomate Nadia (been living together since we arrived in Sg). yea, now i stay alone in my big big room and without aircon)
-my hair is black now (eventually getting tired of dying my hair over and over when the black root emerge). so i think black hair would be more suitable and easy for me.
-got a bunch of new lecturers. and by this time i still fancy my level1 lects more. *hope things will get better*
-i have a panasonic lumix FZ18 (my baby camera). purchased it last yr.
-...name it when i remember it
-owh!!! without 2 wisdom teeth. removed it last summer.

a few things don't change:
-my best friends are still my best friends
-loving yoghurt
-still haven't lose weight or inches
-haven't found a suitable church yet.
-same laptop and SE phone (with new earpieces bcoz i slammed my earpieces between taxi door last week)
-la di da da di da...

and i don't hang out with hostel ppl that much anymore..don't hang out at the balcony anymore..
bcome more reserved..
lonely..
sad.
no la got friends who will cheer me up oso. *singlish mode ON*
class buddy got sally,kaze, jankin,etc etc
brunch-dinner buddy got stevie
walking&talking buddy theresia, jayne, etc etc
and other buddy buddy sukki, acel, nana.
i love singapore.
sometimes.

aaa tomorrow got morning classs i hate morning classssss
now i gotta tell the world about my blog :D

happy..

it's been a week since we've planned this. "tuesday me and sukki will drink and chit chatting in mu lovely rooftop."
bfore sukki came, i hang out with my roomate Nadia. after sukki come, there were the 3 of us.
then Mika joined. then i can't remember who else joined, but there were a lot!
steve brought the beers he inherited from Jason (thx Jason wherever u are, cheers.) ok actually we all dunno when he went back to China, we've just got to know when Steve gave us the beers.
anyway.
so as far as i remember, we end up like.. there were.. em..

me, sukki, nadia, tere, steven, satoshi, yuta, walter, richard, mika, li jayne..

fiuh.. damn crowded but it's fun. it's just a can of Tiger, so nobody got drunk (except my roomate who later i found laying on the floor in our room). but we keep playing that taxi joke.

***
word of the day:
1. TAXI..!!
2. DJ sound: wah-wah-w-w-w-w-w-w-wah-lao-wehhh!!
3. don't fall.. JUMP!
***

it was fun.. we barely know each other but we laughed together loudly.. one thing i remember:
Sukki: hey.. a lot of ppl from different country and different races gathering, how do we call it?
me: ..olympic
Sukki: ...
nice..after few weeks of torture, finally i got relaxing moment..

***
walter: we should play some games here..
someguy: truth or dare!
nadia: dare?? jump..!
***

i didn't take pic of all of them.. shit.. forgot.. when a few ppl left only then i remember. \

uh.. can't upload photos..
will try later..

3rd comeback.. -_-'''

finally.. i touch my blog again..
have been 2 months since the last time i posted.

2days ago me and my classmates talk about blogging.
sally asked me whether i have a blog.

then i remember i have one..

so.. why?? why every time i just don't feel like to blog or take a look at it?

maybe bcoz i don't like what's inside. some bad and disturbing memories which i want to throw away. so, i've just deleted some posts which are 'no longer relevant'.
hope this will work

so many things have changed, i dunno where to start and what to type.
today i'm having the CPJ exhibition, gtg soon.
Later, maybe.

shutting down

doing nothing at TA Mall.. using the wireless connection frm Dunkin.. damn slow lar..
and none of my friends are online rite now..
i'm waiting for this guy to return from FitnessFirst..

next week by this time i'll be gone to Sg again :)
i'm not really concerned about that, in fact i'm a bit happy to return there.
coz i think my life is more stable, better in Sg than in Jkt.
and i'm more focus
more healthy
more easy-going
and less likely to concern about useless things.

there's a bunch of those 'useless things' that really squeeze my mind and made a big impact on its awareness
sometimes i think of something that will not do anything good on me (mean: useless)

what i've learn through this 2months moment?
i got some lesson
there are some things that we won't be able to take control of, or take care of
those things are better to let be
(..let it beeee, let it beeee, let it beeee oh let it beeee....
there will be an answer, let it beeee... =D)

*topic jump*
and on these things, i decided not to care about it
my care won't do any good.
my effort will be fruitless
my aches will be ignored
and so far, zero result..
then i will be considered too much interferring and irritating

i will be (and so far, is) wounded. alone.
Bleed, alone.
Calming my own self.
i'd made myself miserable lately

do i supposed to get through this?

i knew that i deserve better.
i don't like this.

the system i'd created had consumed me from the inside

shutting down the system.
one by one.

pls get ESPN and Starsport to my dorm

hmm.... i'm happy that Fernando Torres has been transfered to Liverpool.
means, i can see him more often since he's in English Premiership now ^0^
i heard that Liverpool broke their highest transfer record to get Torres, which is 24 million Pounds. and Torres will be paid 100.000 Pounds per week. plus, they give him the sacred number 9 shirt. haha, money is such an easy matter for those footballers.

Arsenal, go die, sold Henry and not getting any equal substitutor?
hmm but they still have Fabregas, Eto'o, and who else?

MU: not my favourite!!! i hope your rival won't be so unfortunate next season!

I'll still hoping on Chelsea next season!! Go Go Go!
get a stronger amulets, u guys!! don't get injured too much!
last season had been really tough coz u lost a bunch of key-players T_T
Pter Cech (or Czech? Cezch? watever) suffered brain damage and can't play for a few weeks. very bad. so, use the extra keeper.
Terry--> i forgot what kind of injury. something to do with the back. defensing line really suffered bcoz of that
and so on..
for next season, their big boss doesn't want to give any pocket money to buy new player.
i think it's ok, since they don't need any. they still can play it good if there is no major injuries like last season. *sigh*

by the way.. i can't watch EPL in my dorm. lame dorm. and F1 too!

by the way..i've just remember. tonight Kimi Raikonnen won the British Grand Prix!!!
second Alonso, third Hamilton. Go Go Kimi, i'm sure u still got the chance to beat Hamilton and Alonso in the classement.
today's classement:
1. Lewis Hamilton (70) McLaren Mercedes
2. Fernando Alonso (something) McLaren Mercedes
3. Kimi Raikonnen (52) Ferrari
4. Felipe Massa (51) Ferrari

come on kimi at least u MUST BEAT ALONSO!!!
if Hamilton's star is shining undeniably, it's not ur fault.
BUT do remember to defeat Alonso so he can't hold his nose up to the air anymore.